What the heart wants 

In regards to my career this past months I really had to dig deep ad decide if I want to live lavishly, not minding whay I do or live comfortably and LOVE WHAT I DO. Its so important to be happy, stressfree and enjoy waking up and heading to work. There are so many miserable people out there that hate there jobs, there bosses, doesn’t challenge them enough or is just plain boring. YOU CREATE YOUR OWN HAPPINESS! 

Its save to say my heart is a muscle the size of my fist, and I’ll keep loving, keep laughing and carry on.. Loving what I do. 

Pains and Gains. 

Havnt written in, way to long. Finishing my semester, killing it at placement and looking for a job has been keeping me busy and when not busy in bed dreaming  

Trying to get a 4.0, make connections and be the top dog in a highly competitive world is busy.. hard.. lonely.. motivating.. and when the world knocks you down man do you feel like taking a nap, calling it quits. 

I am sure every 23 year old or you know any age really feels like they are never going to get where they want to be, never going to have an extra dollar after paying the bill, oh and eating and having a phone so you know those company’s/bussiness’s out there can get a hold of you when you get the jobs 50 people applied for. 

Work through all the pressure, work through all the stress and always get stronger, better, smarter. You know I’ve noticed how much it revolves around the connections and the people you know. Go out there volunteer, get to know people. 

Goal is to Never have to introduce yourself! 

Healthy what is it? 

What’s your healthy? What does healthy mean to you? 

Everyone seems to have a differant definition of what healthy is, and how to become healthy. There are even some people that judge others based on what their healthy looks like.. 

For me; healthy starts inside yourself and shines through youre body. 

For me;healthy is eating a balanced diet, treat yourself or you will be miserable. Don’t be afraid to sit on the curb and eat a poutine. 

For me;healthy is exercising but having fun doing so, dance parties walking in the beach. 

For me;healthy is having a happy, content, stable mental state. Even if that means crying at the movie you’ve seen a million times or an episode of Ellen.  

For me;healthy means having relationships that are positive, people that make you laugh and bring out the best in you. 

For me;healthy is being proud, confident and believing in yourself. Pushing yourself to be better, whatever that is even if it’s just waking up on time for the 3rd day in a row. 

Everybody’s healthy is differant. Healthy leads to YOUR happiness don’t let anyone define youre HEALTHY. 

April 2nd Autism Awareness.  

The love I have for you is forever unconditional. You give me so much inspiration, the best nephew I could ever have. 

Autism Awareness April 2nd, let teach others how to be more aware, more knowledgeable, non judgemental, love with an open heart and to laugh laugh alot. 

Xoxox

Reflection. 

Hey guys, and gals I am back. I’ve been so busy with school, placement and family. Just wanted to leave a little blurb, as I reflect on the week. 

You used to build me up, the only person I could count on. I thought forever you were the one that dragged me out of the darkness, all along it was me. Now that I’ve gotten my own flashlight and know how to navigate better then anyone. Now that I am stronger then ever, I’ve noticed maybe I was saving you the whole time. You drag me down, beat me up and take me for granted these days… it’s my fault as I realize I’ve let you do this the whole time. Time, passes and I don’t know how long this will last. I am stronger and more confident then ever, I know this will kill you.. murder, but I can’t watch my heart bleed.

The only thing keeping me around is love, I love you.. sadly I don’t like you anymore. You’ve changed or maybe I was just to blind to see it before. You looked like superman in cape, you were just a villain looking for an escape. Maybe I should have looked deeper then your face. 

Kindness. 

You never do know the battles people are fighting,  what was said to them by others or even by themselves leaving the house, what side of the bed did they wake up on…. 

We need to start being nice to people. Remember the saying “don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all”. Stop talking our bad days, bad moments, bottled up anger out on everyone else.

Some people just need a little sunshine with their rain. 

Say hello, give a wave. Doesn’t hurt to smile at people even if they growl, smiles are intoxicating. 

Marianas Trench <3

BIG SHOUTOUT to the band that guided me, inspired me, gave me strength and a million things to relate to throughout my childhood and teenage years.. And even to this day.

All of the songs, hit my heart in so many ways. They are not only lyrically brilliant, they beat and instrumental music is phenomenal.

They also help out organizations EVERYWHERE, as you notice in their new song Who Do You Love.

Let me share with you some of MANY lyrics, that carry me home, and healthy.

I thought I saw a sign somewhere between the lines.
Maybe it’s me, maybe I only see what I want.
And I still have your letter just got caught between
Someone I just invented, who I really am and who I’ve become. – Good To You

And I thought you’d feel the same as me
It’s time that I come clean, but
But for now can we just both pretend to sleep
Sometimes the one you want is not the one you need – By Now

All my indecision
All of my excess
Don’t you ever tell me I’m not lovin’ you best
I just need a minute
I just need a breath
You’re very hard to drink to my continued success- Sing Sing

When you’re overwhelmed and you’ve lost your breath
When the space between the things you know is blurry nonetheless.
When you try to speak but you make no sound
And the words you want are out of reach but they’ve never been so loud – Beside You

 

Push yourself 

As I am in my third semester, attending school and doing my placement has really pushed me… outside my comfort zone, through my anxiety and made me more confident. 

Pushing yourself to achieve what you thought was unachievable feels amazing!

Talk to you guys soon, inbetween the busiest of adventures. 

Netflix – The Colony


Here we go again since I received a lot of likes and comments about my last neflix review… 

This show is filled with excitment starting with the amazing actors that are in it. (Josh Holloway) from lost, Laurie from the walking dead (Sarah Callies) and from CSI (Paul Guilfoyle).  

I am not one for si-fi flicks but this has an astounding amount of drama and mystery which leaves you staying up late when you need to go bed. Just one more episode… it will have you constantly wondering what’s happening next and what’s really going on. 

BRING ON SEASON 2! 

Neflix- The OA 

Here’s the thing, I don’t usually do show or movies reviews, reviews for anything actually. Butt…

I just got done watching the netflix original show called The OA. It has got to be one of the most moving, captivating and inspiring show I’ve seen in a very long time. The energy that bring people together is astounding. The mystery, and emotion and drama has you sitting at the edge of your seat. 

When I first read the caption and even watched the first episode of this show, I was confused and tuned off but the more I watched the more compelling it got. 

I hope people give this show a chance, with an open mind. They may find something to relate to even… And boy will you find a million metaphors and reasons to keep watching.