Marianas Trench <3

BIG SHOUTOUT to the band that guided me, inspired me, gave me strength and a million things to relate to throughout my childhood and teenage years.. And even to this day.

All of the songs, hit my heart in so many ways. They are not only lyrically brilliant, they beat and instrumental music is phenomenal.

They also help out organizations EVERYWHERE, as you notice in their new song Who Do You Love.

Let me share with you some of MANY lyrics, that carry me home, and healthy.

I thought I saw a sign somewhere between the lines.
Maybe it’s me, maybe I only see what I want.
And I still have your letter just got caught between
Someone I just invented, who I really am and who I’ve become. – Good To You

And I thought you’d feel the same as me
It’s time that I come clean, but
But for now can we just both pretend to sleep
Sometimes the one you want is not the one you need – By Now

All my indecision
All of my excess
Don’t you ever tell me I’m not lovin’ you best
I just need a minute
I just need a breath
You’re very hard to drink to my continued success- Sing Sing

When you’re overwhelmed and you’ve lost your breath
When the space between the things you know is blurry nonetheless.
When you try to speak but you make no sound
And the words you want are out of reach but they’ve never been so loud – Beside You

 

Push yourself 

As I am in my third semester, attending school and doing my placement has really pushed me… outside my comfort zone, through my anxiety and made me more confident. 

Pushing yourself to achieve what you thought was unachievable feels amazing!

Talk to you guys soon, inbetween the busiest of adventures. 

Netflix – The Colony


Here we go again since I received a lot of likes and comments about my last neflix review… 

This show is filled with excitment starting with the amazing actors that are in it. (Josh Holloway) from lost, Laurie from the walking dead (Sarah Callies) and from CSI (Paul Guilfoyle).  

I am not one for si-fi flicks but this has an astounding amount of drama and mystery which leaves you staying up late when you need to go bed. Just one more episode… it will have you constantly wondering what’s happening next and what’s really going on. 

BRING ON SEASON 2! 

Neflix- The OA 

Here’s the thing, I don’t usually do show or movies reviews, reviews for anything actually. Butt…

I just got done watching the netflix original show called The OA. It has got to be one of the most moving, captivating and inspiring show I’ve seen in a very long time. The energy that bring people together is astounding. The mystery, and emotion and drama has you sitting at the edge of your seat. 

When I first read the caption and even watched the first episode of this show, I was confused and tuned off but the more I watched the more compelling it got. 

I hope people give this show a chance, with an open mind. They may find something to relate to even… And boy will you find a million metaphors and reasons to keep watching. 

A little bit of help. 

People want and need things? Some people expect things to be handed to them, even though they can do it themselves. I hear the complaints all the time..  You are in charge of your own happiness, you create your own happiness, so just do it.  

Okay okay. Yeah I am a bit of a hypocrite, sometimes I can’t even get out of bed and force myself to get ready for the day and expect myself to be happy.. or wait expect breakfast to be feed to me and clothes put on my back. 

Feelings, emotions and mood change day by day hour by hour. I always need to motivate myself to get things done even if there small things, I feel much better when I get things done. Don’t find excuses.. Let’s motivate eachother. 

Beating the bully.

I just need to say I am so SICK of bullying, bullying is everywhere. In elementary school, high school, private school and every workplace. Or hey just walking around Walmart. What is with people being so soon to judge, what is with people that just cant get enough!

Bullying in schools can be devastating for young kids, well kids of any age really. The Netflix movie Girl Like Her, is a must watch. Kids need to realise the consequences of their actions, not just from the parents and the principals but from the kids they are hurting.

It’s truly sad, that we are never ever REALLY going to be able to stop and control bullying. With the bully parents, the bullied becoming bullies, the bullies that are making up for how they feel about themselves, the bullies that think its funny, the TOO cool TOO honest bullies, its never ending cycle of MEAN.

We hear from the people that say don’t be so sensitive, don’t take it personally, just ignore them. I am 100 percent for STANDING UP TO THE BULLY, tell your parents, tell your teachers, your health and wellness is more important then being a tattle tail. Schools only last so many years..

#Bellletstalk 

This is a day to encourage people to talk and to listen. Most importantly open up, don’t be afraid to be yourself. I hope people take the time to read what people share today, read it with an open mind with no judgment. 

For us the poeple who live with mental illness everyday.  Fighting our demons in our heads,  in the mirrors, in the media, in our familis,  communities and friendship. It’s time to take a stand, we are not our illness our illness may be a big part of us but it does not define us. 

I have been fighting the great battle of Borderline Personality Disorder and have been since I was 13 years old. Which is a hard pill to swallow and I mean it, the amount of medication I was put on was disgusting. Some medications do help, and I support the poeple that are trying them out because sometimes our heads need a little help. I want to clap my hands for being med free for 2 years I worked steady on my Dialectical Behaviour Therepy and it has been so helpful. It look me along time to work on it at first I fought it, now I couldn’t be more stable and happier. It’s and constant work in progress… 

Don’t anyone feel the battle has beaten them, sleep it off and keep fighting back. 

You can do it! 

Id like to thank the people that support me; 

My sisters that tell me I am the strongest person they know, they are so proud of me. My parents that love unconditionally and are there for me no matter what. Brian for showing me how to trust someone, and to be loved and treated like any women should be. I thank you for everything that you do for me. Thanking the people that support you the most is an important thing you can do. Sometime it’s not easy helping me out and having to deal with my unstable emotions and impulsive decision. 

I’ve been busy. 

I’ve had some hard times, hard times few understand.  Lately I’ve been wiping my own tears and holding my own hand. It’s crazy when you try to explain it, it sounds insane and… you give up. You hear the same old, I’ve been busy… 

Let’s just avoid the awkward conversation and skip the are you okays. Let’s just visit another day.. 

I’ve just go to work on me and toughen up. 

Fun Facts.

WHO KNEW?

A group of unicorns is called a blessing.

Twelve or more cows are known as a flink.

A group of frogs is called an army.

A group of rhinos is called a crash

If the average night’s sleep is eight hours (ie one third of a day), one sleeps for one third of one’s life. If you live, say, 75 years, that’s 25 years asleep, or 9,125 days.

It turns out though that hair and fur are chemically indistinguishable, both made up of keratin. The argument that is often cited as to why there must be a difference is that human hair will just keep growing forever, while most animal “fur” stops at a set length.

Guinness World Records says the oldest living person verified by original proof of birth is Misao Okawa, a 115-year-old Japanese woman. The oldest verified age was 122 years and 164 days: Jeanne Calment of France, who died in 1997.

 

 

Thank you GOOGLE for providing me with my fun for the day.

No phone zone. 

So every since I’ve started into my 3rd semester of school I’ve decided to have a no phone zone. Which is after school, after homework and after dinner I have an hour and a half without any technology.  No phone, laptop or tv. I’ve been finding it helping my strain of my eyes of coarse and my mental health. I usually do things like;

  • Colour in a colouring book. 
  • Read a book, an actual book made of paper. 
  • Write on actual paper. 
  • Stretch and do a little yoga. 
  • Go for a walk. 
  • Make a cooking recipe that I usually wouldn’t because I have the excuse of no time. 
  • Go visit a family member I have not seen in awhile, this Christmas everyone in my family pretty much said oh we have seen you in ages. And this is totally unlike me I am a big family gal. 

Sometimes I find it a little hard to pack the technology all away but I commit myself to and I feel better.  In the future the time span may get longer and longer.

Enjoy the simple things in life.